Slept And Slept

I'm still feeling brain dead today. I didn't do anything, just cooked dinner. I slept for most of the day since I didn't sleep well last night. I went to bed at 10:30, and was up around midnight for a while, same thing at 3am and 7am. 7am was the worst... I was up past 8 and had to take a couple klonopin to get myself back to sleep. After that, I slept okay for a bit but woke up at noon. I ate some breakfast and lay back down for a minute and the next thing I know it's 3:30. I'm still tired.... probably from sleeping too much. I just don't feel well today. I didn't do any sort of exercise... I was going to go for a walk but ended up napping instead. I hope I sleep well tonight so I can go into work tomorrow. I don't want to go into work. I just want to sleep. I don't like going to work anymore... I feel like everyone's against me for some unknown reason. I guess that's why I'm getting anxiety attacks when I think about work. Yesterday was okay since I was at the information desk unofficially, and I wasn't pressured to do anything. Maybe I could request to go back there, but then I would be out for everyone to see. If I had an anxiety attack there, there would be no place for me to go unless I went to the bathroom, which is a less than private place.
All I know is that I can't stay inside all day.. I have to get out. Last time I stayed inside all the time due to anxiety I couldn't leave the house on my own. I had to be on the phone with a friend. This was when I was living with my sister. She and her husband would be at work, leaving me alone all day. I couldn't talk to my sister, anyway... I didn't have the words to say. She was working with kids with mental problems, and I didn't want to bug her more when she got home. I pulled away from everyone and just sat in my room all day, in bed, petrified of someone coming into my room. I would have a large water bottle and food, and only left to use the bathroom and get more food. I don't want to go back to those days, but I don't know what I can do to prevent it if I can't volunteer.
I still feel like taking a break from volunteering to try and see how it would be. I don't know how long I could take it, sitting alone in my room all day and sleeping all the time. I know it would be bad for me, but I still am tempted to try it. I would need to talk it over with my therapist. She would know what's best for me. Her and Geo.
Food today was bad... I'm at about 1,200 calories. I drank a lot of milk today, hoping to increase my calories but it didn't work. I had my mini bagel with peanut butter for breakfast and chicken with mac and cheese for dinner. I didn't eat lunch today because I slept through it again. Mood today was okay... I think I might be headed down again with all the anxiety. Sleep last night- poor, but I got a lot of it. Anxiety today was moderate... No big attacks, just little ones.