sleeping with a stranger

I want to feel better. my vision is to be able to tame the trauma. I have vivid nightmares yet I wake up and I realize the dreams are my past reality. My heart breaks for my husband. To be a parent of a level 2 sex offender can only be crippling. I see his pain but feel I am misunderstood. My pain in very real. I need to find relief. I hope the councilor can help. I can only pray.
We are in fact living up to our vows. we could have taken the path of least resistance but we know our love and compassion for each other is real, deep and a gift to one and other. I will seek spiritual strength in God.