six month anniversary of your death
Oh Roger its been 6 months since you left. It seems a lot longer, I am so numb today, I can't decide whether to cry or just sit. Luckily after messing with broken pipe I sat down and finished the curtains for your old office, now my craft room or whatever. I can't go forward with it until your sons get their crap outta there.
I woke up to broken pipes to the well, I think they have been leaking there before you left but we thought it was the frost free and you never got around to checking it out. I just shutter when things like that happen, financial it scares me wondering if I will ever be able to keep up with all of it. I am so afraid I will not be able to keep our place if the banks do not refinance it. I have no idea what to do, I am sure it will not sell fast, nothing is. If I lose it I will be homeless.
I am so torn as to whether this is the right thing to do, stay here or go away somewhere else. BUT where would I go, who would I know where I went.
Its so unsettling to be unsettled in not knowing what way to turn, worried I can not do this alone. BUT I have to, I have to.
It was reassuring to have Larry around to help with horses, now he is gone. I am at peace with it because he was so full of cancer, I was afraid he would linger and linger in pain surprisingly to us all he went fast only in pain for the one week. I will miss him he was so much like my dad, and I clung to him for that reason also.
I am getting increasingly upset with ur boys, why are they not getting their stuff, getting it over with. Having that hanging over my head is eating at me. You and your ex wife did not do a good job in raising them I can see that, you should be ashamed of yourself. I have done nothing but be respectful, kind and genuine in welcoming them into our lives together. To be repaid this way hurts bad. Please can't you do something about it Talk to God for me to make things easier I need to know they will be.
I woke up to broken pipes to the well, I think they have been leaking there before you left but we thought it was the frost free and you never got around to checking it out. I just shutter when things like that happen, financial it scares me wondering if I will ever be able to keep up with all of it. I am so afraid I will not be able to keep our place if the banks do not refinance it. I have no idea what to do, I am sure it will not sell fast, nothing is. If I lose it I will be homeless.
I am so torn as to whether this is the right thing to do, stay here or go away somewhere else. BUT where would I go, who would I know where I went.
Its so unsettling to be unsettled in not knowing what way to turn, worried I can not do this alone. BUT I have to, I have to.
It was reassuring to have Larry around to help with horses, now he is gone. I am at peace with it because he was so full of cancer, I was afraid he would linger and linger in pain surprisingly to us all he went fast only in pain for the one week. I will miss him he was so much like my dad, and I clung to him for that reason also.
I am getting increasingly upset with ur boys, why are they not getting their stuff, getting it over with. Having that hanging over my head is eating at me. You and your ex wife did not do a good job in raising them I can see that, you should be ashamed of yourself. I have done nothing but be respectful, kind and genuine in welcoming them into our lives together. To be repaid this way hurts bad. Please can't you do something about it Talk to God for me to make things easier I need to know they will be.
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