six months

I can hardly believe that I have gone half of a year without gambling or stepping foot into a casino.  It feels really good. I just need to stay focused on one day at a time. Next Tuesday is my last day of school, and I need to make sure that I have plenty of things to do to keep me busy. I always have things to do, but I do not always choose to do them. I am working hard to correct some of the damage that gambling has caused me. I used to always be very patient, and now I can't stand waiting in line. I even turned off I76 the other week because I was getting tired of waiting in a traffic jam. What happened? I drove around in a circle (not intentionally) for 20 minutes and ended up getting right back on I76. Another area that I need to work on his organization. I used to be so organized, and when I gambled, I got in the habit of throwing all of my bills, etc.. into a box because I knew that I could not pay them. I figured if I hid them in a box I did not have to worry about them. Another area that I need to work on is just relaxing. I always feel that I have to be going somewhere or doing something. I get frustrated when I do not have any place to go or anything "fun" to do. I was so frustrated on Memorial Day when all as I did was school work, yard work, and laundry. I have to work on getting out of that mentality. As the school year ends I have a lot of change happening all at once, so I am working on a plan for this summer to help me stay busy in a constructive way. I know that people think that I am crazy worrying about having my summer off, but it would be much easier for me if I didn't because I could just stay in the routine that I am used to. Usually, after the first week I am adjusted and ready for a break. I might even start going to GA this summer if I can gather up enough courage to do that. Today was stressful, but I know that it will be stressful until the end of the year. Today I met my new class for next year, and it is always a sad time when my students move to fifth grade. The reason for this is that they are in a new building next year, so I do not get to see how they are doing. I guess that I am lucky because I have a job that I really enjoy which is working with students.