Sitting on the Brick Wall
Weight: 244.0
This is it. This is the brick wall I fought so hard to break through with Positive Changes. I fought for a year and never broke through it. Instead, it broke me. I gave up and gained almost every single pound back. Out of 72 pounds lost I gained all but 9 pounds. And here I am again trying desperately not to repeat history.
My strategy this time around is to try to convince my mind that it not a wall at all. The mind is a powerful tool and it will create what you tell it to. If I think it's a wall, it will be a wall that I will sit on until, like Humpty Dumpty, I fall off and break. Last time I bounced around from 242-244 for an entire year. Now I must deal with the fear of the wall, the fall, and never getting beyond it.
For a week I have bounced around 242.8-245. Sound familiar? I have exercised to the point of barely being able to move I am so sore. FEAR. False Evidence Appearing Real. There is no wall. There never was. Except in my mind and therefore created in my life. I need to stay OFF the scale and trust the process!
This is it. This is the brick wall I fought so hard to break through with Positive Changes. I fought for a year and never broke through it. Instead, it broke me. I gave up and gained almost every single pound back. Out of 72 pounds lost I gained all but 9 pounds. And here I am again trying desperately not to repeat history.
My strategy this time around is to try to convince my mind that it not a wall at all. The mind is a powerful tool and it will create what you tell it to. If I think it's a wall, it will be a wall that I will sit on until, like Humpty Dumpty, I fall off and break. Last time I bounced around from 242-244 for an entire year. Now I must deal with the fear of the wall, the fall, and never getting beyond it.
For a week I have bounced around 242.8-245. Sound familiar? I have exercised to the point of barely being able to move I am so sore. FEAR. False Evidence Appearing Real. There is no wall. There never was. Except in my mind and therefore created in my life. I need to stay OFF the scale and trust the process!
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