sitting by my self
My son is at a friends house , so I am here by my self. I got a call today from a guy in california who puts on a vw show, he called because my wife called him looking for a bus I sold. she thinks I am hiding stuff. It really sickning, he told me it was a weird call.
So I sit here and wonder what the hell has happened to her, how the hell this all happened. I cant get over that she is this way. I also got a call from my attorney wanting a phone conference tomorrow, drug test results?? interview time for my son?? I just saw the attorney this morning and he was in great spirts. My wife behavior?? I now sit here thinking this is going to get really weird. In about 9 days on the 14th , I am allowed to go back to my house. The counsler told me to expect the house trashed, I keep having that weird dream, took a nap today and bam I had it. The dream is, I walk in the house, trashed, walk to her bed room where I see her hair throught the door crack, I walk in to find her dead. She had been there several days, its just horriable. I have always had weird dreams of her since her attempt, even day dreams and panic attacks. I probely am thinking too much. To think I loved her, and what she has done to her son is hard for me.
So I sit here and wonder what the hell has happened to her, how the hell this all happened. I cant get over that she is this way. I also got a call from my attorney wanting a phone conference tomorrow, drug test results?? interview time for my son?? I just saw the attorney this morning and he was in great spirts. My wife behavior?? I now sit here thinking this is going to get really weird. In about 9 days on the 14th , I am allowed to go back to my house. The counsler told me to expect the house trashed, I keep having that weird dream, took a nap today and bam I had it. The dream is, I walk in the house, trashed, walk to her bed room where I see her hair throught the door crack, I walk in to find her dead. She had been there several days, its just horriable. I have always had weird dreams of her since her attempt, even day dreams and panic attacks. I probely am thinking too much. To think I loved her, and what she has done to her son is hard for me.
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Dreams are funny things aren\'t they? Your doing well my friend - just keep on doing what your doing.
Hang in there!
Oh good gracious- this is a tough day I can see that. I will say some prayers for you- try to distract yourself for a bit- and hugs and hugs!
Cheryl
{HUGS} I get the dreams too... mine tend to go even further as in seeing the act happen. Sometimes I wake up wondering if the screams I make in my dreams wake up the neighbors.
Don\'t know if it will help knowing this, but the dreams are because this is the most emotional thing we are going through, and those thoughts always come out in dreams when they are that strong.
Regarding your son\'s girlfriend... she\'s been attaching herself to anyone who will listen, that\'s normal.... and she\'ll probably use that until it\'s all over, and then she\'ll turn on her. So, just in case, be prepared to get a visit from that girlfriend once everything settles.
I\'m glad you\'re finding things in better condition than you expect... it means this will go easier - not great, of course, but easier.... {{HUGS}}
Not to be harsh but,she\'s a little dramatic I think,I also think you are over thinking some not alot just some,I believe that your eyes are finally opening to the way she really is,not the way you thought she was/or the way she acted to be around you....stay strong,it will be ok...hugs,support and prayers being sent your way...Take Care.
I think you are right, I am so use to thinking 5 steps ahead that if stuff is not hitting the fan, thats not normal, hell I really dont know what normal is at this point. Moved stuff today, and my son is very frustrated at the whole situation