Sinking...

I am sinking into my little hole of bad feelings again. I guess i knew it was coming, but I am so tired of it!! I can't stop comparing myself to my friends and other people and wishing I could just handle my shit and get it together. I have a son and a husband counting on me, fuck! I wish I could just wake up and snap out of it! But they all seem on this higher level above me...why? I am doing it all to myself, so I am the only one that can help me...but it kinda seems like I don't want to. Why is it so comfortable to be miserable??