Sinking...
I am sinking into my little hole of bad feelings again. I guess i knew it was coming, but I am so tired of it!! I can't stop comparing myself to my friends and other people and wishing I could just handle my shit and get it together. I have a son and a husband counting on me, fuck! I wish I could just wake up and snap out of it! But they all seem on this higher level above me...why? I am doing it all to myself, so I am the only one that can help me...but it kinda seems like I don't want to. Why is it so comfortable to be miserable??
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What makes you think their lives are better than yours? Your not living their life. Some pple are incredibly good at hiding their true feelings, i\'m one of them. No one in my family knows of my depression or jealousy or that I\'m having counselling! Only my man knows, oh, and everyone on here, here I can be myself.
You and I know you cant snap out of depression, so stop being so hard on yourself, just take 1 day at a time and cry on bad days, be thankful on good days :-)
i know, you\'re right, this is just an exceptionally bad day. thanks for \"listening\"!
Oh Rivasllene..I know!! I know exactly what you mean...we can do SO WELL for a couple of weeks, and than we fall again. Sometimes I can feel myself sinking, like you say, and I have no idea how to stop it. How to come back up out of it. I wish I could be more like missgreen and hide it..I\'m so tired of putting this on my boyfriend, I just want to be NORMAL!! So desperately!! Anyways..you were doing SO well, and I know you will pull out of it; we always do..but I know exactly what you are feeling, and if you need to talk, I\'m here
God..I wish life could be easier for us..