Singledom :(

I really hate being single. Well, that isn't exactly true. I don't mind being single sometimes while I am by myself. When I really hate being single, is when I am out with my brothers and their girlfriends, or when I am with my bestfriend and her boyfriend. I hate being the 3rd wheel, because I am always left out. Even if the try not to, it happens anyways. And then there is the lovie dovie stuff, and I get stuck having to see that. It just makes me feel like crap. And it just never changes. They always seem to be the center of attention, and I just get shoved into the background. And because I have been bullied and have a hard time just going up to people and talking to them, getting shoved to the background doesn't help. But I go out with them anyways in the hopes of fitting in, but that never really happens. I pretty much stand by myself and watch as my brother or my bestfriend talks to people. I just wish that I could find someone that would help me get out there and talk to people. But that just can't happen for me. Never happens for me..... Must be true, that saying 'Good guys finish last'. Definately feels like it.... :'(