silent tears

Today is a bad day I actually am sick of being me trapped in thoughts of self worth and halm I'm with out my meds it's been two weeks now the days seam longer my will to keep going getting thinner I've been given a can but I've given up asking for help there silent crys nobody hears or listens to but I have two little boys who wouldn't cope without me but how how do I face each day how do  I eat and sleep then there's this tiny little baby inside my belly does my baby know I'm broken does he or she feel my feelings will it be enough to keep me going I love my children I really do there my world I am ala lie today because i couldnt live with out my mum and i would be passing the buck to them i would rather live every day dead inside than them feel how i do for just one day but im losing my fight please god just for today give me the strength to see 2mrow x