Side Effects
I am always a little uncomfortable with people asking how I feel. I appreciate thier concern and covet thier prayers but I don't know how to answer them. I guess the best response is ,"I am better knowing that you care." The other question often asked is "Are you suffering from the side-effects?" Honestly, I was. Today, I am no longer suffering from side-effects. Today, I am growing because of the side-effects. What's the difference? Glad you asked! The change in my appetite has done wonders for my diet. I now am very conscience of what I put into my body. I even ordered a sandwich with...you won't believe this...sprouts! Yep, my life has definetly improved. What a great side-effect! I have been spending more time with my wife lately. I had forgotten how nice it is to just "hang out" at home while doing nothing else. I always had "other" things going on while at home. Treatment has given me the gift of uninterrupted time with my wife. What a great side-effect! There are so many gifted and talented people at my work. For years, I have been doing way to much and not allowing them to serve to their greatest capacity. Recently, I have had to let go of many things and have been blessed by watching others pick up the ball and run. It has been a very good thing to let loose of some of the reins. What a great side-effect! I do things to fast. I write very fast. Lately, I have had to slow way down. I thank the brain fog. It has been a very good discipline to slow down and really read through what I write. I have also realized that I don't need to post or publish everything I write. Sometimes, It's OK to just write it down and let it be. What a great side-effect! I few hours of sleep has never meant so much to me! I smiled this morning when I woke-up and looked at my watch, expecting to see 3am, and instead it was 6:30am! Now, there is some joy where before there wasn't! What a great side-effect! Suffering? Not me. I love more and pray more. I am growing! So...how are your side-effects? God bless,Rob
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Sleep, oh so good. Time with wife. Forced to slow down. Allowing others to do things. Improving diet. All gifts in this package.
I just read this journal post and of course I asked how you were feeling. Or did you mean people who cannot understand what you are going though, like friends and family? Sorry!
Yes indeed. It does make you stop and thing what\'s really important in life. While undergoing treatment, I did a lot of soul searching...I had become a person I didn\'t even like anymore and it made me slow down, think...think some more, and become the person I liked again...and with a little growth and a bigger heart. Awesome journal post!
What is happening here Rob, is you are in control of your treatment, unlike most who are letting treatment control them.
There is a huge difference as you can see.
If everyone would control the treatment as you do, treatment wouldn\'t be half that bad, right?
Have a wonderful evening my friend.
Mckenzie
one day at the time.
what an inspiring journal,barb
Beautiful! And so true. It took about 10 weeks for the enormity of this experience to sink in. Since then, I\'ve taken a hard look at obligations, relationships, my job.
Oh! When you\'re ready to start GROWING your own sprouts, let me know :)
Better, now that I know you care. I\'m taking that to use. Thanks. I begin tx on Easter, so right now I don\'t understand the sides. God Bless. Becky
What a great inspiration you are to us! I love your posts. You have a beautiful mind. CAthie
Right on Rob!!!! Although I still feel the waves of anxiety and fear wash over me, I know that I am standing in God\'s mercy and that even this disease has countless blessings to offer to me. It took alcoholism and drug addiction to bring me to my knees before I realized that I probably needed to make kneeling a daily activity. Th
Right on Rob!!!! Although I still feel the waves of anxiety and fear wash over me, I know that I am standing in God\'s mercy and that even this disease has countless blessings to offer to me. It took alcoholism and drug addiction to bring me to my knees before I realized that I probably needed to make kneeling a daily activity. Th