SICKLY

I have not slept. In 48 hours.
I am going to jump out a window.
I have tried decongestant pills, nasal strips, saline nose drops, vapo-baths, steam, EVERYTHING. I am SO CONGESTED and can't breathe through my nose when I lie down. And I can't breathe through my throat because it's dry and sore.
I want to strangle this cold.
 
In other news, classes were fine today. One day at a time. One day at a time. I have told myself this: I still have total permission to give up and do whatever I need to do- but certainly not before I give this a fair fight. I want to try my hardest to get adjusted. I can't go ending everything before I even give it a shot. I'm talking to people a little more slowly but surely. I know, though, that tomorrow my face could be right back to red again. I am taking baby steps.
 
My friend from the mall and I are going to have a sleepover soon- she is so sweet and I feel a bit better now that I met at least one person.
 
Still purging, but not my focus right now. Trying to hang onto life.
Hope everyone is well, I'm off to rub my damn nose raw with tissues again! xo