Sick of feeling sick
So I know now that I have malabsorption but I don't know why yet.
I guess that explains a lot of things. I am probably deficient in every vitamin which explains so so many random symptoms. The only things I have been tested for so far are Vitamin D, B12 and magnesium and I am deficient in all of those. I worry to think what else I am deficient in.
So I had to do a 3 day stool test for the malabsorption. I called the lab last night and they said that they won't even have the results until 11/17 and then it takes 4 more days to get the results to my doctor. Ugh - Another week of waiting? I can't do this anymore.
The doctor doesn't know how to treat me until he knows what is causing the malabsorption. He recommended I go on the Specific Carbohydrate Diet which is in a book called "Breaking the Vicious Cycle". He wants me to go on this diet while I wait. So far all this diet has done is made me lose even more weight and I don't feel any better at all. Before this started I was fit and in the best shape of my life and weighed close to 140 (lots of muscle). Now I am struggling to maintain 120 and I look so deathly sick.
He thinks I might have parasites but I won't know until next week at least. This would explain a lot but at the same time wouldn't I just be feeding them on this diet that I am on? My skin is pale and see through and you can see all my veins. I have acne. My hair is thinning more and more everyday and I am starting to see small bald spots. My eyes are bright red and dry all the time and I look like I have two black eyes.
I know a lot of people in the world have it worse and I try not to have too much vanity. But I miss being a woman and looking like one! I want my husband to be able to look at me and know in my mind that he likes what he sees. He tells me I am beautiful everyday and I know he says it because he loves me but I want to feel beautiful again so that I can believe him.
He played a song for me the other day and told me that was how he felt about me - Bruno Mars - "Just the way you are".
I am truly blessed to have such an amazing husband. I just cannot wait until the day that I can be a real wife again.
This is crazy long but I just feel sad and shitty today and I am so so tired of being sick and tired.
I pray that we all feel better and find peace within to get through this struggle.
It's not fair that so many good people have to suffer.
God Bless
Keri
I guess that explains a lot of things. I am probably deficient in every vitamin which explains so so many random symptoms. The only things I have been tested for so far are Vitamin D, B12 and magnesium and I am deficient in all of those. I worry to think what else I am deficient in.
So I had to do a 3 day stool test for the malabsorption. I called the lab last night and they said that they won't even have the results until 11/17 and then it takes 4 more days to get the results to my doctor. Ugh - Another week of waiting? I can't do this anymore.
The doctor doesn't know how to treat me until he knows what is causing the malabsorption. He recommended I go on the Specific Carbohydrate Diet which is in a book called "Breaking the Vicious Cycle". He wants me to go on this diet while I wait. So far all this diet has done is made me lose even more weight and I don't feel any better at all. Before this started I was fit and in the best shape of my life and weighed close to 140 (lots of muscle). Now I am struggling to maintain 120 and I look so deathly sick.
He thinks I might have parasites but I won't know until next week at least. This would explain a lot but at the same time wouldn't I just be feeding them on this diet that I am on? My skin is pale and see through and you can see all my veins. I have acne. My hair is thinning more and more everyday and I am starting to see small bald spots. My eyes are bright red and dry all the time and I look like I have two black eyes.
I know a lot of people in the world have it worse and I try not to have too much vanity. But I miss being a woman and looking like one! I want my husband to be able to look at me and know in my mind that he likes what he sees. He tells me I am beautiful everyday and I know he says it because he loves me but I want to feel beautiful again so that I can believe him.
He played a song for me the other day and told me that was how he felt about me - Bruno Mars - "Just the way you are".
I am truly blessed to have such an amazing husband. I just cannot wait until the day that I can be a real wife again.
This is crazy long but I just feel sad and shitty today and I am so so tired of being sick and tired.
I pray that we all feel better and find peace within to get through this struggle.
It's not fair that so many good people have to suffer.
God Bless
Keri
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