SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED!!!!!!

I AM VERY, VERY ANGRY RIGHT NOW INSIDE!!!!! I HAVE BRONCHITIS NOW FOR OVER 1MTH!!! I FEEL JUST ROTTEN, AND JUST WANT TO DIE! I AM SICK OF SUFFERING SO VERY MUCH WITH THIS BULLSHIT FIBROMYALGIA, AND CHRONIC FATIGUE AND ALL THE REST OF THE STUPID ILLNESSES I HAVE!!! I FEEL LIKE KICKING A WALL IN BUT IF I DID I WOULD JUST HAVE MORE F*$%@ PAIN! I HAVE NO ENERGY AT ALL, NEED TO HAVE A BATH NOW FOR OVER 5 DAYS AND NO ENERGY OR UMPH TO DO EVEN THAT, BOY AM I MAD AT THIS SHIT!!! I HAVE BEEN CRYING AND CRYING AND JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO TO MAKE THIS ALL GO AWAY?????? I USUALLY DON'T FEEL QUITE THIS BAD, ON OCCASSION I HAVE BUT TONITE FOR SOME REASON IT IS REALLY DRIVING ME CRAZY! I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT OF THE HOUSE ANYMORE, SHIT. I AM TOTALLY USELESS, I AM A BURDEN TO EVERYONE I FEEL, LIKE WHY IN THE HELL AM I HERE??? JUST TO FRIGGIN SUFFER EACH AND EVERY DAY??? WHY?? WHY?? BOY, AM I MAD RIGHT NOW AT THE WHOLE WORLD, MY WORLD!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO, BUT SOMETHING BETTER QUIT RIGHT NOW IN THE NEAR FUTURE, I CAN'T GO ON THIS WAY MUCH LONGER, AND YES I DO FEEL LIKE DYING, I AM DYING INSIDE RIGHT NOW, NO ONE UNDERSTANDS THIS HELL I LIVE IN AT ALL, EXCEPT FOR SOME OF YOU THAT MAY GET THIS BAD, OR ARE THIS BAD CONSTANTLY EVERY DAY 24HRS. OF EVERY DAY OF YOUR LIFE, IT IS TRULY HELL!! HELL ON EARTH, I WANT TO SCREAM RIP THINGS APART KICK WALLS, CURSE SOMEONE OUT, STOMP AND SCREAM AND CRY, AND JUST SAYING THESE THINGS I AM EXHAUSTED, I TRULY AM, I WANT TO SLEEP FOREVER. I JUST DON'T KNOW I REALLY DON'T?????? DOES ANYONE KNOW WHAT TO DO???? AND YES I HAVE PRAYED CONTINOUSLY NOW FOR DAYS, MTHS. YEARS!!!!!! WITH NO ANSWER IN SIGHT WHAT THE HELL DO I DO NOW???? PLEASE HELP ME SOMEBODY, PLEASE........

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ah Sue....I haven\'t been on DS much..place is friggin dead BUT I KNOW how you feel cause every damn word you said I feel many days...I know sweet heart !!!! Just wish I could make it all better for you, me and all those that are suffering ..it more than sucks...sorry....love you..you are never, ever alone in your pain...xo Deb