Sick Again

Today I've been having problems with my stomach. For most of the morning and early afternoon (when I was trying to get to work) I was in the bathroom. I couldn't go in because what's the use of going in if I'm going to be on the toilet the whole time? So I stayed home. I felt like crap all day. I don't really feel like doing this journal, but I'm supposed to do one every day and well, it's just a habit. I pretty much stayed in bed all day, reading for the most part. I didn't even leave the house. I wanted to go for a walk around dinnertime, but I had to cook instead. I hope tomorrow I can get out and work out. I haven't in days, and I know that if I want to make my 1,000 fitness minutes a month, I'm going to have to work out even more since I've taken so many days off. Tomorrow I'm also going to have to try and go to the store... we are out of milk, soon to be out of bread and eggs. I need to talk to Geo to see if he wants me to get him more soda or not. He has Gatorade that he can drink instead. I know I'm enabling him by getting him soda, but I can't stop him from doing it. He has to want to himself for it to work. That's what you have to do with any addict.
I don't know what set my stomach off this morning... I ate the same thing as Geo last night for dinner, and he wasn't sick. I guess it's just something I will never know. I woke up originally around 9am, and stayed awake till past 10am. Then I was able to fall asleep for a bit and woke up to use the bathroom a couple times. I stayed in bed until 1pm, and then got up for the day. I tried getting my stuff together to go to work, but I was still having stomach problems, so I just stayed home. I wish I would have gone in, since my stomach cleared up around then, but it's too late now. I took a nap today, too. I was up in the middle of the night for a bit last night, but I don't remember how long. I know it was hard for me to go to sleep, too. I know Geo had trouble sleeping too. I haven't taken the klonopin in a couple weeks now, and I'm trying not to take it during the taper.
Speaking of the taper, I'm hallucinating a bit. I stopped the Risperdal yesterday, and that's what keeps them away. Nothing so bad as that I should go back on it, just a couple of bugs here and there. I also hallucinated a bug biting me (I was looking at my hand when I felt the bite, and there was nothing there) and that's something I haven't had in a while. I'm going to step down the Neurontin tonight, and I will see how my moods are tomorrow. I want to go into work tomorrow, but I know that's a bad idea. I need to get my long walk in, anyway. I want to walk at least a mile and a half. I know I have to be careful with my walks and hydration, so I'm going to take Gatorade with me. I will also make sure that I drink a lot of water tomorrow before I go out. I'm hoping that will take away the dizziness that I've been feeling while walking.
Mood today was okay. I didn't feel good today, but I wasn't depressed or anything. I've just been tired. I don't know how I'm going to feel tomorrow. I think today I overslept, with sleeping till 1pm (because I was sick) and taking a nap (because I was tired). I think I'm going to try going to sleep early tonight, too, so I can wake up in the morning and go to the store. I really don't want to go, but I have to. I will have to take the bus there, since I don't have anyone to drive me. I should get out my luggage tonight so I don't have to mess around with the closet when Geo's sleeping. He sleeps on that side of the bed with a fan between him and the closet, and I don't want to knock the fan over while he's sleeping. He's not getting good sleep as it is, I don't want to be responsible for taking even more sleep away from him. It's not a big deal for me to get the suitcase now. I go to the store with rolling luggage to get the groceries home.
Food today was bad. I'm only at 1,100 calories, but I'm not hungry. I didn't have lunch, and only had a small breakfast. I was going to eat lunch, but I just didn't get hungry for it so I didn't eat. Looking back, I should have had ramen or something small to keep my energy up, but I just didn't feel like it. I was lazy tonight and just made a lame attempt at dinner- chicken with mac and cheese. I hope tomorrow I can get some good stuff at the store to make for dinner. Right now we only have a couple of options, and none of them really sound good to me anymore. I'm just too tired to care. Stress today was low, and that's it!