Shut down

I had an incident the other day that has shut me down emotionally.  I have endured abusive relationships my entire life up until 10 years ago.  Since then, I have lived alone, and I like this because I answer to no one but myself good bad or indifferent.

Thursday I had a friend who I thought I had a good friendship with with good communications go off on me over something that others were doing.  I am not talking about grousing or venting.  I am talking full on with hatred and venom.  It took a day for the symptoms of my PTSD to start being noticed by me.

I can rationalize that the outburst was not aimed at me.  Even so, I just have withdrawn and I really do not want to leave the house or engage with anyone.  Self isolation is a protective mode.  It is as if I have rebooted in 'Safe Mode'.

I know that in time this will pass but it is 50/50 that I will ever trust this person again.  I am not frreaking out or anything.  I have jusy gone quiet.