Show of anger from me again!

I am still frustrated about things coming from beliefs that my family does not need me. I am trapped between my dreams about being in the US military or doing a job in Pakistan. How can I do some thing for my family? One way is to get to the US, be into the profession whose basics I learned so far: I mean the military profession. The other way can be to forget my dreams and be a teacher forever. I am confused! This keeps me thinking. What adds to this are the harsh living conditions that almost every Pakistani is facing these days. This is daily shortage of gas in the homes. The government has announced a 2 days SUPPLY OFF policy for CNG (Compressed Natural Gas) for cars also. So it is cold here while you get up from your sleep and want to take a bath but do not find hot water. Pakistani women are not able to cook their daily meals. Some times they are sending their children and husband to schools without giving them breakfast. It is hard to cook the mid day's meal too for the gas supply is little. Now with a sick mother and a naive sister (who does not even remember what clothes did she wash for me and where did she place them after getting them dried in the sun. I guess I have to quit expecting them to be 100% as they so kindly had been till this time in my life. Mother is sick now with cancer. Sister can not take care of the whole household with that much of energy as we will expect from a more 'normal' girl (she is a mystery case of her own). I will have to respond to the offer from the academy brought to me by a man I admire. Our unfulfilled expectations from others make us frustrated and then it is a show of anger on the weaker ones around you. I need help to control it. I need prayers for our mother to be healthy and our sister to be strong and wise.