shopping
It was a good day for the most part. I met 2 of Lisa's good friends and went for breakfast. We then picked my granddaughter up from school at noon and went shopping. It was wonderful to talk to Mona and Beth - they were good friends. We were all crying at the breakfast table. I am sure the waitress was wondering about us.
Cevyn, my granddaughter had a good time missing math class! She knows Beth and Mona well so had fun shopping and visiting. This evening, they went to Saunders' Farm - it is a farm that has become quite famous in the area for its spooky Halloween presentations - haunted hayrides, mazes etc. My SIL arranged for Cevyn to take 3 classmates from last year so she got to catch up with friends (she was in a private elementary school last year so most of her friends are in other school districts). It is bitterly cold out so I stayed here.
It was a good day but but the emotion builds up and by evening, I break down. Perhaps it is because I am tired - I just want to cry and yell and scream - and sometimes I do - like tonight.
Due to weather and commitments, I did not walk today. I hope the weather is good tomorrow!
Cevyn, my granddaughter had a good time missing math class! She knows Beth and Mona well so had fun shopping and visiting. This evening, they went to Saunders' Farm - it is a farm that has become quite famous in the area for its spooky Halloween presentations - haunted hayrides, mazes etc. My SIL arranged for Cevyn to take 3 classmates from last year so she got to catch up with friends (she was in a private elementary school last year so most of her friends are in other school districts). It is bitterly cold out so I stayed here.
It was a good day but but the emotion builds up and by evening, I break down. Perhaps it is because I am tired - I just want to cry and yell and scream - and sometimes I do - like tonight.
Due to weather and commitments, I did not walk today. I hope the weather is good tomorrow!
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Dear Marlene, How old is Cevyn? What a great kid. Grandchildren are such a blessing. I am glad you had a good day with Cevyn, Mona & Beth. I so relate to your words. Sometimes for me after a relatively good day I too have a meltdown. I think for me its the parallel or altered reality. That I can have some contentment even fun, then the pain rears its ugly head once I get home and the reality of no longer having Eddie physically here hits me & it hits hard! Sometimes we wil just have to cry & yell & scream until the wave of grief subsides a bit. I think what you describe is a natural part of this horrible process/journey. Love and so much understanding, Linda
Cevyn is a beautiful 14 year old girl who is the light of my life. It pains me that Lisa isn\'t here to watch her precious daughter blossom.
It sounds like a good day...accept it, love it...and rest...Karen
everything is colored with bittersweetness. Such is our lives now. Sandi.