Well im so irrated right now. I want to scream. Stupid people piss me off so bad. Arrrggg. I cant find a damn counselor and it is making crazier than I already am. I feel bad my girl is having a hard time and I just make it worse I feel. Stupid life. What the hell yo. Seriously!!!! I HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so overwhelemed right now and I shouldnt be. Arrrr. What the hell is the point any more? I dont know. Seriously I dont know. I should just go back to my old ways. There were way easier than this.  I just keep struggling and dont make a damn break!  Im out.