She sent me a text
Wow..... she sent me a text stating she is his wife and needs to know from me if anything is going on between us and to please respond with the truth.
I freaked. I kept thinking.....if I dont respond she will assume the worst, they wont get any sleep and it will be fighting all night. And even if she isnt convinced she will have an answer and at least she has something she can choose to believe in. And obviously he is saying nothing is going on so our stories match.
She responded that she hopes nothing is going on and it really hurt her to see my text and thanked me for responding.
Looks like a crisis is averted. This could have been soooo much worse. There won't be a next time. I'm going to change my number. I can't believe I have done this to someone else. I know what it is like to love him and how much her heart must have been breaking to think he cheated on her.
I'm not a bad person- I'm a good person. I dont know how I got here but I think I need to figure it out and find a therapist.
I freaked. I kept thinking.....if I dont respond she will assume the worst, they wont get any sleep and it will be fighting all night. And even if she isnt convinced she will have an answer and at least she has something she can choose to believe in. And obviously he is saying nothing is going on so our stories match.
She responded that she hopes nothing is going on and it really hurt her to see my text and thanked me for responding.
Looks like a crisis is averted. This could have been soooo much worse. There won't be a next time. I'm going to change my number. I can't believe I have done this to someone else. I know what it is like to love him and how much her heart must have been breaking to think he cheated on her.
I'm not a bad person- I'm a good person. I dont know how I got here but I think I need to figure it out and find a therapist.
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Hi loveis - sounds to me like you are the OW (other woman)? I don\'t know much about your story but I hope that you are able to find the help you are looking for. Searching for a therapist is usually a good idea when it comes to our own emotions.
Sending support your way!
Thanks. Yes I am the OW. Or was- maybe? We have been together on and off for over a decade and we do love each other but we aren\'t meant to be I guess. He was dating someone and she got pregnant so they got married. I ended it and begged him to not contact me....and he respected that for a few months but then he did contact me and I thought we could be friends.....he was my best friend.....and of course we ended up back where we left off. I ended it again when the next kid was coming along and again I failed at that attempt. I\'ve been trying to find a job out of state.....to avoid this. It\'s so hard. I love him and I know it\'s wrong but I can\'t help how I feel. It\'s been a long long time. I think I needed this to happen so that I can finally move on. I feel so sick.