She's gone

She's gone an left me behind and i can't help to feel confused wanting to ask her why. She appeared to care so much and now she's vanished into thin air.
last year... A funny way we became friends through my eyes atleast. She is part of the reason i stopped cutting. Part of the reason i'm here now, only because i refuse to call some numbers in an book she gave me for teens. She made me promise to find some way to get help and i did.
I expected to see her and mrs.healey next year tell them how i have no added scars. Show them the poems/ writing and art i've created that they love so much. Thank them for helping me and supporting me when i honestly needed it. They're the reason i'm still alive most likly.
But i can't do that anymore can i. Because that strong rooted tree i thought would be waiting for me has caught on fire and nearly brokendown. I'll cry to mrs.healey ask her why even if she doesn't know the answer. But i get over it with her help most likely and the tree will come back stronger with the change of seasons. But i may always feel that she has left and abandoned me in one of my times of need.
She may have given warning to her leaving and i just ignored it at the time. She asked me to tell some one of my problems if i moved. But it seems to me she is the one who has moved and i'm not sure if in can follow through on that request...
Now she is gone and i'm am left here to wonder why.