Share my feelings and Thoughts

I am currently on Lithium 1050 mg twice a day! , Abilify 10 mg, Topamax 100 mg, Wellbutrin 50 mg, and   Lamictal 200 mg. I take Trazadone 100 mg to sleep. I still feel depressed. I need to get a blood level on the lithium before my doctor decides to put me back in the hospital for ECT. ELectro convulsive Treatment. I heard this works wonders for Bipolar patients when meds aren't working for them. When i was in the hospital in November, The doctor had me on Lithium 1500 mg BID which means twice a day. Holy crap thats alot of lithium even tho I am a big guy (over 200 lbs) 
Part of the reason I am depressed is because I am overweight and my social situation which is because of my weight which affects my self esteem. Anyway..
Well hopefully 2012 will be a good year for all of us! 
:)))