Sexual Abuse

I was molested when I was a little girl. It only happened once. Then when I was 17 I got sexually assaulted by one of my managers in the freezer. It was horrible. Then from the time I was 17 all the way up to my 18th birthday I was sexually abused by my step brother. I relive all of this every single day. I feel worthless and dirty and ashamed. I just want it all to go away.....

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robotnik
robotnik

I'm very sorry to hear about your nightmarish experiences. I can't help with that - you probably need a good psychologist/ psychiatrist and some strong medication. You say you self-harm to cope but that isn't even helping anymore...so, if you haven't already gone to a psych, now may be the time to do it.
BabyGirl98
BabyGirl98

I’ve been seeing a psychiatrist
LillyPotter
LillyPotter

the most gentle of hugs, i am so sorry for the traumas you have experienced. it is very good to know you are being seen by a psychiatrist - do you feel good about that?

i mean, do you feel that you are being helped by the psych doctor? sometimes finding the right fit doesn't happen right away - i hope it has for you with this dr. a psychiatrist can make such a wonderful difference in helping us deal in the beginnings of PTSD therapy. or cPTSD, which it sounds like you probably have - complex PTSD, which is PTSD that happens over yrs and is caused by more than one trauma over and over.

most of the time, a combination of some kind of therapy with a therapist/counselor/psychologist goes along with the psychiatrist - but some psychiatrists also do therapy w/patients.

often times, psych docs have therapist they like to work with - but you don't have to use those.

as, i think, donnawanda suggested - you can probably find a therapist who specialises in trauma - very important for us - the specialising ptsd - thru rainn.org

they can connect you with someone near you and these counselors are at no charge to you. that can be the difference in counseling or no counseling for so many of us.

the people at rainn truly care and want you to get into counseling. more gentle hugs xo
Ghostwolf04
Ghostwolf04

The best thing you can do is forgive yourself. Remember no one can love or hate you more than you can love or hate yourself. Don't let those bastards have power over you. What happened is over. Let it go and don't let it happen again.
You have a whole life to live. Be who you want to be. Some day you will find happy positive people to bring into your life and you won't even worry about your past.