Sexless relationship

I tried to get his motor going again last night. Nothing seems to work. I am too shy and reserved to just come out and tell him I need him to fuck me. This comes from the fear of rejection and actual rejection. I always hear stories of how much he liked sex and some of his experiences and it just makes me angry and sad now. Why couldn't I have had that man. Even for a while. What man doesn't want sex or isn't horny and if you're not horny and your girl is and you can't get it honor can't have sex how about giving her a little pleasure. If I wanted to have a collection of toys I'd be single.