Sex? Ugh..

How is it possible to enjoy having sex with my husband when all I can think about is how fat I am?  I feel so completely unsexy it is pathetic.  I have tried wearing makeup and stuff, but it doesn't help when I only have one pair of jeans that I can wear.  I have such nice and cute clothes, but I can't wear any of them.  I have tried everything I can think of.  I can't really go walking or anything because my baby is sick and I am not gonna walk with him in the stroller because of the damn weather here.  He is already sick, I don't need him getting sicker.  I have tried exercises at home...but hell, I exercise enough running around cleaning house and chasing my toddler around.  How the hell am I not losing weight??  I am so damn tired of being fat and I can't seem to do anything about it.  I am drinking lots of water...I have almost completely cut out salty foods.  I have cut down tremendously on sugary stuff.  I have a couple of cups of coffee and maybe one soda a day.  That is a huge improvement for me.  I am only eating when I am hungry instead of snacking all day.  I've cut out fried foods.  I don't know what else to friggin do.  I feel like I will always be fat.  I hate it.  I feel so damn ugly and unattractive.  How can anyone want someone like me?  I feel like I'm defective or something.  I hate looking at myself.  I hate thinking about sex or anything that has to do with my body....  I hate myself.... How can I learn to love me again?