Seven days - no gambling
One week has gone by since I last wrote in my journal. I had been doing pretty good till last Sunday when I let the voice in my head convince me to gamble ... up to that point it had been two weeks and I was feeling good.Last Sunday I felt horrible and ashamed, and of course lost a ton of money, so here I am a week later and once again I feel confident and in control. Oh man, I pray that I have enough strength to stay away from a casino.
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Monday, August 1, 2011
two years have passed since I last came to this site and wrote in my journal. Time has gone by quickly and I still gamble and continue the cycle of up and down and mostly down and hating myself for the money wasted.
Again today another loss of my hard earned money and panic as I walk out how I\'m going to scramble to get all my bills paid for. I\'ve had it. I\'m going to the casino on morning this week, very early in the morning and go throught the self exclusion. I\'ve thought about it many times and actually feel ashamed to do it , but at this time in my life gambling is taking all my extra money and leaves me nothing. I pray this will help me ..... all I know for sure is that it bettter help me cause I can\'t take it any more.
Anyone who cares to comment and leave me words of support and help me along the way I would appreciate it. I\'m really not sure if I\'m using this site correctly. Any words of support, please write.