Settling Dust
Hi All, Well it has been about a month since I posted and since “D” day. As traumatic as the past year has been sorting through things, admitting to myself that I wanted and needed a better life and how the resulting “D” will eventually be better for both me and my wife (ex). In the past month we were able to have a revelation as to our relationship. Realizing that we (hopefully) will be able to keep a friendship built on the goodtime’s of our marriage and the raising of our family. Knowing that we can still occasionally lean on each other during rocky times, We both are setting off on new paths on our journey into life.
Now this past week I have found myself contemplating the loneliness that I am feeling. It is very different than the loneliness felt before and during the “D”. It is more of a contemplation of what I want my future to be like and not knowing the direction to turn to get there. Having my good since tell me to take things slow and not jump too soon for the want of companionship, while at the same time wanting the comfort of sharing. Realizing the subtle changes in my home makes me wonder it is not time for a change there as well. Maybe look at the possibility of a move to some other part of the country. But not sure if I can afford that right now.
I made my oldest daughter a promise that I would not date any woman more than 3 dates before dating someone new for the next year. And then her knowing me, she made me promise that I had to at least go out on a date, or on my own to some type of event twice a month. I guess that is a place to start. But even with this guideline, the evenings with just me and the dogs and cats are starting to wear on me. I guess it is time to find an event to get out to!
I hope every one of my friends here on DS has the best of weeks and a better weekend. And guess what? I am actually looking forward to this weekend! Bye !
!
Now this past week I have found myself contemplating the loneliness that I am feeling. It is very different than the loneliness felt before and during the “D”. It is more of a contemplation of what I want my future to be like and not knowing the direction to turn to get there. Having my good since tell me to take things slow and not jump too soon for the want of companionship, while at the same time wanting the comfort of sharing. Realizing the subtle changes in my home makes me wonder it is not time for a change there as well. Maybe look at the possibility of a move to some other part of the country. But not sure if I can afford that right now.
I made my oldest daughter a promise that I would not date any woman more than 3 dates before dating someone new for the next year. And then her knowing me, she made me promise that I had to at least go out on a date, or on my own to some type of event twice a month. I guess that is a place to start. But even with this guideline, the evenings with just me and the dogs and cats are starting to wear on me. I guess it is time to find an event to get out to!
I hope every one of my friends here on DS has the best of weeks and a better weekend. And guess what? I am actually looking forward to this weekend! Bye !
!
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