Setting fire to the rain :)
Hi Ya'll :) - As they would say in America :)
Wow i have been telling myself to wright for a while now but never got to it :) I guess i dont feel in general so bottled up anymore. My mom is like always there(since she now lives around the corner!) to listen and talk about stuff. So by the time i arrive here, i feel like that pondoring has allready slipped through customs and left my ...thoughts :) I also have these amayzing people, new and old in my life who is just planting all this happiness into me and who are just sooo caring and understanding, even if its just giving a smile,hug, a call or even a ear to lend. Thanx everyone :) you know who you are :)
Well, this is definitley a craze rollercoaster ride! Yet i am still happy. Besides chris that was in an accident last night, my sister and her monthly moods (LOL) and my dad asking me to move 200 km to him on the farm, i can say im pretty much still sane, which is a good thing right? lol. Just kiddin.
This car accident with Chris, i must say i was really worried. I wanted to just check if he is ok and give him a hug and say (as i used to say) everything will be ok. BUt now i can only comfort him and ask if i could do anything to help, he should let me know. He has changed alot, but i sense so much anger and confusement in him. He says he will never forgive my dad cause my dad wont forgive him....argg men!!!But i mean, of course my dad wil find it hard to trust him cause he came across as a guy that hits his daughter right? even though i know Chris aint like that naturally.....I would just find it so much more beutifull, if you could forgive someone even though they wont forgive you, cause forgiveness is not for THAT person but for one self :) RIGHT???
(Sigh...and its a big one according to the duration my hair stays in the air ;) )
My sister, love her to bits and shes a gorgeous lady, and Even despite her headstrong personality and feistiness, she is doing everything to make me feel happy :) Really....and that means alot to me seeing she put her .."ways"on side to accomodate and emotionally support me and Lil Miss Tianna :) My dad is also very supportive and love him to bits....He wants me to move to the farm and stay with him. This is a big MOVE . If i could swop jobs i guess that would be easier but ....wow i still feel like its just this HUGE thing to think about....for some odd reason. I can tell you one thing though, my gut says wow nelly! Take it slooow mooo! so im sticking to that now :) ill know when its the right time :)I have faith :)
so yeah that probably all i can share with you now :) Im still doing honky dory! getting my hour of laughs everyday :) (during the week) and just adore him...;)
Keep well everyone :)
Wow i have been telling myself to wright for a while now but never got to it :) I guess i dont feel in general so bottled up anymore. My mom is like always there(since she now lives around the corner!) to listen and talk about stuff. So by the time i arrive here, i feel like that pondoring has allready slipped through customs and left my ...thoughts :) I also have these amayzing people, new and old in my life who is just planting all this happiness into me and who are just sooo caring and understanding, even if its just giving a smile,hug, a call or even a ear to lend. Thanx everyone :) you know who you are :)
Well, this is definitley a craze rollercoaster ride! Yet i am still happy. Besides chris that was in an accident last night, my sister and her monthly moods (LOL) and my dad asking me to move 200 km to him on the farm, i can say im pretty much still sane, which is a good thing right? lol. Just kiddin.
This car accident with Chris, i must say i was really worried. I wanted to just check if he is ok and give him a hug and say (as i used to say) everything will be ok. BUt now i can only comfort him and ask if i could do anything to help, he should let me know. He has changed alot, but i sense so much anger and confusement in him. He says he will never forgive my dad cause my dad wont forgive him....argg men!!!But i mean, of course my dad wil find it hard to trust him cause he came across as a guy that hits his daughter right? even though i know Chris aint like that naturally.....I would just find it so much more beutifull, if you could forgive someone even though they wont forgive you, cause forgiveness is not for THAT person but for one self :) RIGHT???
(Sigh...and its a big one according to the duration my hair stays in the air ;) )
My sister, love her to bits and shes a gorgeous lady, and Even despite her headstrong personality and feistiness, she is doing everything to make me feel happy :) Really....and that means alot to me seeing she put her .."ways"on side to accomodate and emotionally support me and Lil Miss Tianna :) My dad is also very supportive and love him to bits....He wants me to move to the farm and stay with him. This is a big MOVE . If i could swop jobs i guess that would be easier but ....wow i still feel like its just this HUGE thing to think about....for some odd reason. I can tell you one thing though, my gut says wow nelly! Take it slooow mooo! so im sticking to that now :) ill know when its the right time :)I have faith :)
so yeah that probably all i can share with you now :) Im still doing honky dory! getting my hour of laughs everyday :) (during the week) and just adore him...;)
Keep well everyone :)
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