SERIOUS ADVICE NEEDED, NO SERIOUSLY!!

I am struggling so bad. I just want to say that I admire ALL ladies who try for another baby after a miscarriage or stillbirth. I am in complete awe of the ladies who are pregnant with their "rainbow" after losing their "angel".  I however want to try but I am so scared. You see I wish I could just "try". I am angry because my "try" cost me thousands of dollars to have another cycle. The bright spot is I was offered a summer position in which I can make 4,000 in 6 weeks which can finance another cycle. However, I am so scared to pay for another cycle in which I might be losing money if it doesn't work OR this happens again (lose the baby). I was told by my RE to call when my cycle starts in JUNE. I am a teacher so an IVF cycle that can be complete in the summer is HUGE because I don't have to take off. It seems that everything is working in my favor. I am just well simply put "SCARED AS HELL". 7 teachers REPEAT 7 teachers are pregnant at my school. ALL OF WHOM SEEMS TO HAVE COME OUT AFTER I LOST MY BABY!! AWWWWWWWWWWW. I don't know if I can stand all these pregnant mommies in the fall!! I just feel I need encouragement. I want to try again, but I am so scared, my hubby is like let's do it! In which, I look at him like "HUSH, YOU AIN'T CARRYING THE BABY". I need encouragment from the ladies WHO FREAKIN GET IT!!