sept 20th

WHAT A BLESSING  PRAYERS ANSWERED.   SECOND WEEK OF Aug .    first doctor said mass and suspects cancer but need specialist/ so i got to  one, on 15th    said same as fam doc.   then on 25th  a surgeon   really rocked my world.      mass cancer     need to move inwith someone or someone move in with me full time i would never thru ''this'''' alone would need round clock care takers    and on and on and onall negative,  no hope.     for over week no sleep or food,   stressed scared,   what will i do living alone and what broke my heart i figured by timetreatments start,  i would have to give up my kitties,  delivered two of them have siblings, now 11,   only fair to them and their well being if i am thatsick  cannot expect some one to come in twice a day or care taker to do this every day for weeks into months way surgeon talked. but same time some thing did not add up.  i did not like her.  she was so full of ego,  self centered,   no concern of my the patient,  all about her making name for herself.     right from med school.       to much to go into here,  but red flags and i decided after what she did,  on second appt which i was tricked into,   that i had to tell fam doctor what  was going on.  he was upset he got me into new doc  at bigger hosp center of Pa.      wonderful doctor.   so compassionate,  caring and  well he made my world for sure on Sept 16, he said his tests came back from lab    all benign,  which means  other two doctors     either playing games or misdiagnosed me or played games, or

wanted hosp procedure not necessary which some of this is true.....  so filed complaint with patient advisory board,   how far they have gone do  not know, or trust them.   plus   worse then her head games,      ins  company will be billed for two appts..one a joke  other one tricked into coming in  thought as nursecalled said had to come back to sign papers...now no paper work to sign all a trick.     her own RN questioned her  went over her head and doc  thought it was me.  so what she did  was really hang her self  with lies   setting me up and did this in front of two witnesses which one was intern student.   which the board was  upset over this fact alone.     so now filed with health dept  which gives lisences to  practice in Pa..not sure how far they will in vestigate but i feel better i took this next step.   i asked they at least call or write letter to patient advisory board to see if  hosp replies.        doubt any need for lawyer but not sure.....  was this just me or does she do this to others.   and she intimindates them to agree wtih her?? or was it i stood up to her asked questions.   she is of mind set to do just what she did.      really stooped low for professional specialist.....    so be it.  i feel better i got out of system,  maybe closure now for worse month of my life,  well second i guess to sitting with my mom for  couple weeks day by day 24 hours until she left this world.    that was hard  but this scare,  no hope    i knew i could fight,    what ever i was faced with,  but to know head games,  how she  snickered,    made fun of me,  condescending,  belittling,  patronizing me  comparing me with  her dad as old people.     see she did stoop low.... way beyond unprofessional.         almost personal.      so will see what happens   see if i get rely from health board  that they AT LEAST check into   this.... that is enough for me.      i know she got into trouble with her dept boss doctor,   from RN asking questions,,  then board advisory  asking questions,  but this  health board,   what ever they do,  i   know someone will  read it.  so be it  well good night every one,    i also having trouble sleeping and up late....    took meds for  a month,   over so scared,  stress,    now keyed up  and need closure,    hqd to do this,     she has to know never ever to do this again.     to any one...and  she sure showed no respect to her dad.  none what so ever.  well  have wonderful Tuesday  where ever you are ..... blessings.      will take few days for me to unwind,     stress energy,  gets things done, but just drains you....emotionaly drained and exhausted.    but praises for this  3rd good doctor.  he is wonderful.       and all benign.....    what a relief.....prayers for those not  so lucky,  for some reason God wants me here while longer not sure what his plan is for me,  but this is 3rd scare with bi-op but by far the worse.  hugs to all   good night or good morning.     east coast or west coast.