Selfishness

so where I’m living next week is spring break and last night I was told that my mom probably couldn’t take the whole week off, she could take maybe 2 days. My mom is an amazing woman and she absolutely loves her job and loves to help the people she works with, in fact she’s up for an award soon, but she’s been work a LOT of overtime and I was hoping that spring break would be the break she needs, but when I was takin to her about how she needs a break my grandma who lives with us left the room and after talking we decided that we would use this weekend and then she would also take off Monday and Tuesday. We were talking about what we were going to do for the weekend so my mom called my grandma in and the first thing she says is “is her attitude or tantrum over?” And then she kept going and she called me a snotty teenager and a selfish bitch and how when I don’t get my way I throw a fit. Now I’d like to clarify that I really hope I’m not like that and if I come across like that then I’m sorry but the worst thing that I could ever be is selfish. I have family members that are like this in some degree and I don’t want to be like them. The whole time this is happening my mom and me are listening quietly and the more she talks the more I want to leave and cry but instead to try and not prove her right and storm off I just listen and I have to pinch myself to keep from crying. Then after she’s done talking I do the dishes with my headphones in like I have always done and when I clean up she start to get after me and again but my mom stops her. I go to the basement to clean up a spill on the floor after and I takes everything in me to lot cry loudly and have them hear. I couldn’t breathe and I was hyperventilating near the end but I cleaned myself up and cleansed the floor and then went upstairs. Later me and my mom went to the movies by ourselves because my grandma was to tired. That night I wanted so badly to say I didn’t mean it and that I’m not selfish and when I was downstairs my mom talked to my grandma about how what she said wasn’t true and that the only reason I was mad was because my mom couldn’t take time off and if she doesn’t soon she’ll lose it. So I don’t know how today will be when I get home and it’s just me and grandma because my mom is working today until 8. Which is also an example off how committed she is. Anyways thanks for listening or reading I guess.