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Yesterday one of our physical therapist announced that her cancer is back and she is going out on leave. Called in all of the staff to tell them. She is well loved. She was very tearful and talked about not wanting to leave her husband, the patients that she promised she would work with. She cried and said she lied to them. It was horrible I started out crying for her, but turned it back to me. I was crying about leaving my family, about my health, leaving my job. It brought my feelings out. I had to go hide in a room and shut the door. Had a little breakdown. Since then I'm just blah. MD appointment on the 16th. Important one. Talk about Duke etc.
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I\'m so sorry about your friend..you are right it does hit home..It is awful when. You find out. You are sick..You only see negative. .But what. About the people who are very sick and don\'t know it..Or the ones driving to work and get in car wrecks...Why can\'t we go back. To living like that instead of allways thinking about the end.
I would like to think we all have good. Days coming. .You will love Duke..Please do not give up....prayers comimg your way...Joanne
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Nancy, My heart goes out to you. Being honest I have shared those thoughts and feeling, they scare the hell out of me and push me into a dark place. But also like you I find ways to fight those feelings inside. Please don\'t give up or into them Nancy. We the group are here to help you, and to help ourselves. Take care, Bill