Self-harm

Hello everyone.. I hope you all are well, and I wish I could say the same for myself. I don’t know why i do it. I cut myself and I’m looking for better alternatives. So far I have; cut, pierced, burned, and starved myself. I get really down and depressed since my parents are fighting all the time, I don’t think rece about the emotional pain I am going through because the physical pain masks it. I’ve tried other methods sucks as drawing on myself and yes, intercourse. I felt like drawing wasn’t doing anything productive or making matters any better. With sexual activity I get in a better mood, but come home to shit. I realize that self harm is bad, but I’ve been doing it since I was 13 and I wouldn’t say I am addicted to it, but whenever I feel like crap and I have a spare blade or 2 near by, it just happens. I have tried talking to people in real life and nobody seems to take me seriously. I figured I would give this site a try, and see if there are individuals who will listen and not just hear me. I mask a lot of secrets with my “smile” but nobody has any idea what I go through. This is a reoccurring scenario and it hasn’t gotten any better.. will anyone listen to what I have to say? Or give me some suggestions?