Self hate

I am hating myself right now.  I am trying to lose weight but I just had a milkshake, pasta, bread and orange juice.  I shouldn't have eaten this much.  I wasn't even that hungry.  I have so much going on right now.  Why can't I just focus and do my school work?  I have so much to do but I have just wasted the past three days in front of the TV.  I just don't have motivation to do anything.  I should go die.