Self-esteem work

I've been doing a workbook for improving my self esteem and I am finding it so positive. The distorated thought patterns I have lived with my whole life have really come to light during this process. I am working with my counselor in understanding this whole process. My last journal entry talked about my improved self identity and I really have all of this combined as a goal. I am finding it so enlightening to open my eyes to how I have talked to myself for over 40 years. As I look back over my marriage I see how my distorted self talk negativly impacted my part of marriage. Seeing this now and being committed to becoming a better person give me hope. I can see a future of better communication with my children and friends and find this empowering. I must also admit thought that the process of learning about distorted thinking is hard work. On some the first assignments I was so tempted to stop and just read the sections and not really apply it to myself. Now, two weeks into it I am so glad I didn't.
I look back over the past 3 years and realize I have changed in a positive way. The divorce court date was 1 year yesterday and yet I didn't swell on it too much. The 3 year period is the more real time frame for me. I went through hell and thought I would never survive. My counselor has been there with a real look at life for me the whole way and with a positive thought process to replace all of the guilt I was living in the first year.
I am looking forward to my continued growth because I like the peace I have begun to have within myself. The low self esteem has been with me my whole life so I will just give myself space and time to find where this will lead me.