Self disgust takes a toll

I'm not as pretty as I could be. Not as beautiful as I should be.
I laugh too loud and my nose crinkles up when I do.
My thighs are disgusting. Scarred and fat.
The dark circles under my eyes can't even be covered by makeup.
My teeth aren't as white as I would like them to be.
My complexion is as light as it's ever been. I look dead.
I should have blue eyes, not whatever these are.
I'm not toned anywhere.
You can see all over that I'm tired. Wise behond my years.
Can I just be wonderful now?