Seeking peace

today I decided to reach out and find online support. I will also look for a support group in my community. I am newly diagnosed and newly accepting my diagnosis. I am fearful of the different meds used for bipolar, but do understand everyone has their own med that works for them. I am alone in this process. My mother is 88 and is ill, I am not connected to my brother. My social circle is very limited and the closeset person to me I am afraid to share because I don't want to dissapoint and she is not aware of all the issues I have had all my life---depression, social anxiety, anxiety, panic, anger. she sees the good or functioning me. I started my downhill a few days ago and just feel very lonely today and scared, so here I am trying to take the next step in helping myself get well.