Seein and forgiving my best friend after over year....
Feels like a dream. I've avoided and avoided her calls for a year. And yesterday I felt like avoiding no more. I've missed her so much.
Let's start from the beginning. We met in beauty school. We were together from morning till night. If someone wanted to know where one of us were they'ed ask the other. Then things started to change... She starts questioning things that weren't there. I was so confused. Questioning me. We sepperated and didn't even talk about what was wrong. I felt something was wrong with her but I didn't know how to fix it... And I didn't know what it was. Months passed of not talking the she popped back up. We met and talked.... She had started hearing voiced and walking. She had stopped eating and drinking. And ended up at the state hospital. She was diagnosed with manic depression and skitzofrinia(sp?) The voices stopped after that and life went on. I learned when she was having her maniacs. But the paranoia seemed to almost go away..... Till last year. She had a baby. Soon after I could tell something was wrong but I stuck by her side. The baby's father was in an out her life. They'ed argue an fright like kids and say mean hurtful things to each other and one day she was hirtting him do he decided to tell her... Well that's why I've been sleeping with shyanne. At first she believed me then she started to believe him and took alllll her anger out on me now And included me in there hurtul game. One of the calmer things she told me was "ha ha and you to fat to have baby's that why you miscarried". It Hurt so bad. I swore I'd never forgive her.... But that all changed yesterday. I decided to answer the phone... And it's like we were never apart. She had gone crazy again. Started hearing te voices again. And the paranoia is worse then ever. I see the old parts of her most of the time... But then she takes all her meds and.... It just makes me so sad. I wanted to keep my distance from her but it's so hard. It's like we're sisters. Like when together we have our own language. But I'm scared the past will predict the future and it will all happen again.
Let's start from the beginning. We met in beauty school. We were together from morning till night. If someone wanted to know where one of us were they'ed ask the other. Then things started to change... She starts questioning things that weren't there. I was so confused. Questioning me. We sepperated and didn't even talk about what was wrong. I felt something was wrong with her but I didn't know how to fix it... And I didn't know what it was. Months passed of not talking the she popped back up. We met and talked.... She had started hearing voiced and walking. She had stopped eating and drinking. And ended up at the state hospital. She was diagnosed with manic depression and skitzofrinia(sp?) The voices stopped after that and life went on. I learned when she was having her maniacs. But the paranoia seemed to almost go away..... Till last year. She had a baby. Soon after I could tell something was wrong but I stuck by her side. The baby's father was in an out her life. They'ed argue an fright like kids and say mean hurtful things to each other and one day she was hirtting him do he decided to tell her... Well that's why I've been sleeping with shyanne. At first she believed me then she started to believe him and took alllll her anger out on me now And included me in there hurtul game. One of the calmer things she told me was "ha ha and you to fat to have baby's that why you miscarried". It Hurt so bad. I swore I'd never forgive her.... But that all changed yesterday. I decided to answer the phone... And it's like we were never apart. She had gone crazy again. Started hearing te voices again. And the paranoia is worse then ever. I see the old parts of her most of the time... But then she takes all her meds and.... It just makes me so sad. I wanted to keep my distance from her but it's so hard. It's like we're sisters. Like when together we have our own language. But I'm scared the past will predict the future and it will all happen again.
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It\'s always nice to reconnect with old friends. It\'s like family. And you always know its a true friend when you pick up right where you left off. Almost like there was never any time apart. I can\'t say that I understand anything you are going through, because I have never been in that situation, but I can say that I have had friends I have been concerned about and not sure whether I should avoid or even get involved with again. Whenever there is a relationship there is always a chance that someone can get hurt. Maybe before you get too deep into the friendship again you could just let her know your feelings of how things hurt last time and you don\'t want it to hurt again and maybe that will keep the lines of communication open easier and that might even help her more with keeping on track with her meds. Good luck with it all. It\'s always great to have a good friendship like that.