Second Round
This is day five after my second round of R_CHOP and like the first round, the effects are kicking in. I feel like dog breath this morning and can't keep out of the bathroom with diarrhea. Went to the Oncologist yesterday and we started the injection of Neupogen to try to be proactive with diminished white blood cells. I was also hoping it would reduce the gastro effects. OH WELL. I know this is something that I have to tolerate, but I find it difficult to accept.
In my quiet moments, I do pray for strength and it seems to always come. Therefore, it gives me resolve to be patient with myself.
I'm so lucky that I have a loving partner that is being so supportive through all of this. At times, I think it is just as hard on him as me. He says little, but I know that he is hurting also.
I know I have a right to feel sorry for myself periodically, but nothing positive ever comes from it. Consequently, I will get involved in something distracting today and pull myself out of these blues.
In my quiet moments, I do pray for strength and it seems to always come. Therefore, it gives me resolve to be patient with myself.
I'm so lucky that I have a loving partner that is being so supportive through all of this. At times, I think it is just as hard on him as me. He says little, but I know that he is hurting also.
I know I have a right to feel sorry for myself periodically, but nothing positive ever comes from it. Consequently, I will get involved in something distracting today and pull myself out of these blues.
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