Second beta and terrified
We'll last night I had the smallest amount of spotting once I got to bed. I was sure it was the end of things and AF had arrived. I still thought it was too early and at least I was right about that. This morning I just had a littl brown spotting the first time and since then it's gone.
You have to understand that because I wanted to test before I saw my RE on Thursday, I tested on what I think was CD22. I wasn't even expecting to see a positive at that point except that I was feeling pregnant. Turns out my beta was 9. Yes ladies 9 ! The nurse told me that since I had tested so early she wasn't really surprised and that I was in the good range for CD22 and I just needed to wait for my 2nd beta.
I POAS again this morning and it's still positive. I just can't tell if the line is getting any darker or not and lets not forget today would still only be CD24 !
I hate this cause I never test this early. I might be the POAS Queen but I still usually wait until the day AF is suppose to show. My cycle is 26 days.
I'm scared but I've decided I need to stay positive. I refuse to give up on this baby ! I soooo want this pregnancy to work out I've decided I will will it to work.
I'll update once I have my new beta number.
You have to understand that because I wanted to test before I saw my RE on Thursday, I tested on what I think was CD22. I wasn't even expecting to see a positive at that point except that I was feeling pregnant. Turns out my beta was 9. Yes ladies 9 ! The nurse told me that since I had tested so early she wasn't really surprised and that I was in the good range for CD22 and I just needed to wait for my 2nd beta.
I POAS again this morning and it's still positive. I just can't tell if the line is getting any darker or not and lets not forget today would still only be CD24 !
I hate this cause I never test this early. I might be the POAS Queen but I still usually wait until the day AF is suppose to show. My cycle is 26 days.
I'm scared but I've decided I need to stay positive. I refuse to give up on this baby ! I soooo want this pregnancy to work out I've decided I will will it to work.
I'll update once I have my new beta number.
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A beta of 9 is a positive result even though it\'s low. When I first saw a faint positive with this pregnancy, I waited until the next day for the beta and it came back at 17. 4 days later, it was 180. A beta has to start off somewhere and a result of 9 means fertilization and implantation has occured, which is a great first step.
I know you\'re scared of miscarriage and I don\'t blame you. I had 3 of them, all very early, and nearly in a row, before this one finally stuck. Each and every pregnancy is unique and not influenced by the one that came before, so history does not dictate the future. Take it one day at a time and I\'ll hope that this time you got that good egg and good sperm that will stick around for the next 9 months (spotting this early doesn\'t mean anything, so don\'t try to interpret it either way).
And... if not this time... you will have to grieve it and it will not feel good... but remind yourself that there is a silver lining in all of this - you know you can get pregnant and those embies are implanting (that\'s what my RE told me when I had my chemical pregnancies), so you can take some reassurance that persistence will most likely eventually get you the one that will stick it out till the end. For now though - one step at a time - and at least for the moment - YOU ARE PREGNANT! :) Good luck for the next beta!
I really need to take a page from your book, your positivity is inspiring! I guess we just take this day by day and pray for increasing numbers! Can\'t wait to hear your next beta!!! Enjoy the weekend!
I don\'t know about that. Everything is making me dought buy thrn i trow sonething away and i almost puke because of a smell so I think maybe it will work out.
Guest I\'ll either have a great weekend or a total meltdown once I get the call this afternoon.
I hope everything works out :D stay positive!
I am so excited your you. I too will will it to longevity. Huge hugs, I feel like doing a little happy dance with you today. :-)
Try to stay positive! Looking forward to hearing your update! I think it\'s gonna be a good one!;-)
Will it!!!!! I like your new attitude. Cannot wait for the second beta!
Keeping all extremities x\'d for u today!
Good luck today! C\'mon embie grow!!!
Sending positive thoughts your way!
huge hugs I cant wait to hear that the beta doubled or even tripled you got this baby and maybe the spotting was just it burying in deeper for the long haul... hugs
Stay postive Roxy good luck on your 2nd beta! Sending you my best!! xo
I went up to 44 !!!! Ok I know that\'s still very low but it\'s already higher than my beta with my mc last summer that was 24 on CD28 and I\'m only on CD24 today ! I almost went up 5 times in 44 hours (first beta on thursday was only 9).
I get an other beta on Monday to make sure my numbers keep going up. I had told the nurse this morning that I was really hoping the RE would let me do an other one even if the number was good.
The nurse also already made my appointment for my u/s on the April 15th. It\'s so close but still also seems so far. I just hope I won\'t go totally crazy until then.
Thank you all so much for your support. I really don\'t know how I could deal with these ups and downs without you.
Yay, what a great jump!!! Beta twins on Monday! :)
Yay! I want another beta !!!