screwed

journal entry 2 
well i love my best friend , but i am trying to get over her. last week was just awful because i almost did it , came out to my best friend / sexist person on earth but i couldn't , it never seemed like the right time. a part of me did not want to think about it  and in some ways i was successful cause my mum and dad spent the whole weekend scolding me  but this keeps following me and i am not sure how long i can keep it in. i have diarrhea  , that is how stressed this makes me , i almost cracked in front of my friends. oh and i always seem to think that my feelings come second to my friends which is not good , like at all but i guess i have to work through all this stuff, the only good thing is i feel fine maybe even happy right now  despite my crappy week