screw it

i talked to my mom earlyer or rather we yelled at eachother....i dont take care of jade right, i cant keep the house clean, she gunna quit her job so she can keep the house clean (my fault of course), i cant do anything right ever so whats the point in trying? she got mad at me cuz jade ate alot of yoghrt and spilt pickle juice an di didnt clean it up...i was typeing a hitory report on greek mythology in a vain atempt to bring up my grades.....but no i dont take care of her. she said she gunna have to quit her job cuz she dont trust me at home alone with her. so i yelled back im sorry im not the perfect daughter you always wanted im sorry i was trying to do my homework. IM SORRY OK?!?! and i went into my room slamed my door and cryed...i put some warm clothes on and went for along walk and did some thinking.....tonight mom is home so i will take 22 tylonol and some ibfrofin and go to sleep.....i like sleep so i will just die in my sleep....thats all i want....just some peace....and im gunna get it....screw the word....im done....