screaming inside

i am absolutely begging for someone to chat with me......someone that i don't know and they don't know me, but has HH.
fear keeps me from going to the er.  the dr's that i have been too are cold hearted or they chose to use stupidity as an excuse not to treat some ppl.
i am in excruciating pain but the response from the er over the 11 yrs has taught me that they won't help me.  i have no money, no insurance and no where to turn....why won't anyone help me?  sometimes you just need a shoulder to cry on.....i have no one.