School,Tired,School,Headache, Finances Suck,Tired,PT again,Doctors

Hello AllWell its been a week since I wrote not that much going on I guess. Last monday I went to see my psychiatrist and got another perscrption. Tuesday went to Aftercare with a headache. Missed school on Monday because of headache. Thursday went to see a PA about my foot turning out he took x rays and now wants me to do PT so now I start tomorrow. I got in the hole with the bank with lots of money which means it will take part of my VA check on the first. Can't tell Ralph because it will show that I'm a failure again. I felt real bad and had some thoughts of suicide but I know if wouldn't solve the problem because it would just leave them the problems so I'm sticking it out. Takin over and getting it fix. Had class on Thursday and spent Friday, Saturday and Sunday with homework. Saturday and Sunday morning til 5 getting work done then til Monday morning til 16sec til 1 am getting it done before it was due.Stressing out but mom did help.Ralph having off and on headaches and being in pain all the time dont help. I made A's on two projects out of 6 so far. Its not getting no easier. Joey is starting school soon and the VA papers are out hopefully get them soon. Money from them for him going to school will help with the bills and get him a computer he needs or school. We will have to share until he gets him another one. He has a older one and it doesn't work the best. Dustin is doing fine with his surgery, he is a uncle now on last thursday. Went to visit them last wednesday and the house is old but its a roof over their head. The older son is a ass and yes I said ass. Joey loan them a TV until they get gas to get theirs now dustin has one to play his games. They have no cable but they do have playstation 2. We also loan them some movies to watch on a dvd player they had its handheld they got from somewhere. So the older boy doesn't have a job and because of being a dumbass he has no drivers license until he pays a bunch of fees for wrecking. So now he's pawning titles to come up with money. So there in the hole big time. I can't help them there but I call and talk to her and tell her God will watch over them and she say hope so and tell her to have faith. So thats my news on them. Please pray for them and pray that my son gets a job. Also pray for those in the shooting in knoxville yesterday and I hope they put the guy under the jail. The people beliefs doesn't matter dont' mean they deserve to die. Hope to talk soon. I'm wearing my glasses, I'm trying to smile, going to classes, still clean and cancer free,helping my son, house not finish, feeling better not, clean desk not, and life sucks so far. My monday suck because i forgot my cpaps this morning and i loaded my sub if you wanted to see. Love ya all hope you have a pain free day. LoveRobin