SCD Day 7

One week!  I woke up feeling the same as last night, antsy and irritable.  After my eggs I ended up eating all the tops off the homeade cinnamon rolls that have been sitting in the fridge.  This was my first time really cheating...sugar and bread!  On my gosh it tasted so good.  I swear it was like I was having my drug.  The way I had been feeling felt like I belonged in rehab!  I then had a major meltdown.  I starting sobbing.  It's been awhile since I've cried like that.  I think it's exactly what I needed, though...getting some real feelings out instead of numbing myself with food (even though I tried with the cinnamon rolls).  I then fell asleep on the couch even though I probably slept 10 hours last night.  After I woke up I felt alot better.  What a morning, huh?  I felt like I was sane enough to get back on track, so I made my grocery list and went to the store.  I decided to add a few things even though I'm not sure I'm supposed to yet.  I decided to go ahead and add the chedder cheese...yum.  I bought a couple avacados.  I got pears and made cooked pear sauce along with the apple sauce.  I bought some frozen fish, too.  For dinner tonight I had chicken (that I cut in cubes and cooked in the pan with a little Saflower oil), cut up avacado and a little shredded cheese.  It was so refreshing to have something new!  I need to make something sweet (besides apple or pear sauce).  I also decided to add back my Benefiber that I've been supposed to be taking.  I would really like to force myself to go on a walk tonight, I think it may really help.