SCARED, trying to be Calm....

OK, tomorrow I see my neuro and find out what the heck these things are in my brain (didn't say on mri report) and the benign hemagianoma (tumor of blood vessels) on T11 is.  The spot on the brain is in the right occipital (back) and I am wondering.......MS, some rare blood disorder, or a symptom of Fusogenic Paroxysmal Dyskensia.  Supposedly, that will cause cycts.  However, a tumor, even benign, full of blood vessels, will that mean it could rupture and lead to internal bleeding and I die without warning?  Oh, and on the ever warped side of my humor.....Doesn't hemagianoma sound like some pasta dish you would order with marinara sauce? ROFLOL  I can hear it now, "Yes, please bring me a house serving of your best hemagianoma with marinara and a side salad with ranch dressing." LOL LOL LOL The neurosurgeon said there was nothing "surgical" to do to return to neurologist.  I'm just antsy to say the least.  I want a DEFINATE diagnosis so at least I know what I am dealing with but I can't deny I am afraid. However, I know I am in my Savior's hands, He's with me, and no matter what, it will all work out somehow.  I know what God's called me to do and I ain't leaving this earth till I've completed my work.  And who knows, this may be just another "thorn in the flesh" that can be used to show that in my weakness, God is still strong and He will get more glory. Yep, I am going to choose the positive attitude and believe.......God's never failed to love me and take care of me.  This is no different.....