Scared to go back to school
So, Im in the Eighth grade at a school that I despise. The kids are horrible, and only 2 out of my now 5 teachers (Ive been unenrolled in math because my teacher was horrible)dont understand me. The two that do are my choir teacher who I've been with since sixth grade, and my history teacher, who was bullied extremely horribly in her 8th grade year because she was born and raised most of her life before that in India and doesnt want any other 8th grade girl to go through the same thing.
Anyway, I havent been to school since Tuesday, because i found out in drama I don't get to play Morticia in the Addams family skit which sucks, and the fact that everyone in my school.. Well, they suck. My mom's been trying her hardest to keep up with my shittyness, but I made her cry multiple times in 3 days.
I dont know what to do, because I cant stop thinking about going to school on monday, and it's triggering my anxiety, and when my anxiety's triggered i want to either cut or throw up. I kind of feel like throwing up right now. Im so scared to go to school monday. But I have to, because i only have 12 days left of school, or something? this is the last full week before a 4 day, then a three day week, then it's summer.
How can I
1. Get my mind off this and enjoy my weekend
and
2. Get up and go to school without crying monday?
Anyway, I havent been to school since Tuesday, because i found out in drama I don't get to play Morticia in the Addams family skit which sucks, and the fact that everyone in my school.. Well, they suck. My mom's been trying her hardest to keep up with my shittyness, but I made her cry multiple times in 3 days.
I dont know what to do, because I cant stop thinking about going to school on monday, and it's triggering my anxiety, and when my anxiety's triggered i want to either cut or throw up. I kind of feel like throwing up right now. Im so scared to go to school monday. But I have to, because i only have 12 days left of school, or something? this is the last full week before a 4 day, then a three day week, then it's summer.
How can I
1. Get my mind off this and enjoy my weekend
and
2. Get up and go to school without crying monday?
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School isn\'t easy. I do remember that. And especially for people with anxiety. I\'m sorry you have to go through this. I can only say that since school is almost over to try and get threw the last two weeks with knowing its not that long. I hope next year is much for you. Do you have any thing that you could think about that makes you smile? Something to focus on as soon as you wake up so that it sets the tone a little better for the day? Are you looking forward to a vacation? Maybe seeing a friend? I used to pretend a lot that I was someone else And just went through the motions most of my school life. I guess I wish they had Internet schooling back when I was in high school because that would have worked better for me, is that an option for you next year? Well hopefully you are able to do this for 12 more days. I\'ll pray for you, stay strong.