Scared of dying

Ok today is just filled with anxiety. Actually the whole weekend has been. Had plans to have family cook out and the weather put a damper on that. Anyways have not done much but clean house this weekend. That sometimes help get rid of the anxiety. Not working well. At my doctors appointment a couple of weeks ago he told me that if i dont get control of my anxiety it is going to shorten my life span. Here I was already scared to death and now to hear that. Well i really dont know if that was some kind of trick or what it was to maybe scare me out of this anxiety but it didnt work. I am more nerivous than i ever was before. I take my vitals everyday now and look for any symptoms i might be having just to see if i am developing any medical issues. I have all most got to the point of giving up and saying what the hell. I will live the rest of my life at home and just be this. I hate that because i dont want to hold my husband back from doing things. he says he understands but i fear one day he wont and will leave me over this. anyway just wanted to write because i have went from scared to angry right now and pissed that the doctor would tell me something like that. they always say think positive and then to hear that. thats all for today i guess.