scared as usual

just wanna ramble. i feel like im twelve with my first girly crush. i think me and my girl have reversed our age. i cant focus cant be content when im not with her. cant relax. always worring about whats gonna happen. when shes gonna leave. god im glad she only knows im half crazy. why cant i be happy only seeing her once in a while. never have been this in love and happy before and wanna crawl into her skin and stay there. gotta work out and make my head stop but so self conscious cant leave house to go to gym. yikes puppy prozac should be my sign on name