Scared

Well, I met a guy, who I like a lot.  He is new to the trailer park, divorced but has a host of health problems and he is a yr younger than me.  He lost half of a leg at the age of 28 but he does well with that.  He is a diabetic but his diet is horrible.  I tried telling him that but men are so stubborn.  He has had a heart attack a few yrs ago too.  I know he is a big risk to have in my life.  But I feel like he is not in my life.  I've only been over to his place once so far.  He has never come here.  Yes, he calls me now and then.  So far it's been every other day.  I still don't know if he likes me or not.  He told me he wanted a relationship too.  But I'm thinking maybe not with me!  He talks a lot but it's mostly about his family, not him personally.  Except for his health problems.  I just don't know any more.  He is a nice and funny guy.  but not much affection comes from him.  And he said once he was a affectional guy.  Maybe I'm reading into this to much.  We only have known each other for 5 days now.  time will tell I guess.   I just feel more, I don't know what?  I would love to spend more time with him but I don't want to be pushy.  Plus he does work all day and is tired at night esp since it's been so hot.  He hates the heat.  I need to stop thinking so much I guess.  I prayed for a long time for a decent man to come into my life.  Someone who doesn't smoke or drink and Dave doesn't do any of that.  Oh well, we shall see what happens in time I guess.